That's me for the entire day. I was only happy at around 2pm because I found my favourite Fossil shawl and Zara cardigan like omg I was really sad when I thought I was losing my favourite stuff one after another.

So I'm currently tidying my cupboard. I started counting the amount of clothes I have. Oh and I haven't repeated any outfits yet! Except once. Haven't worn some stuff to school yet. There's this Year 2 girl who wore the same outfit for like 3 SQPE lessons already. The blue formal top and her black bandage skirt. Okay too bored in class. No, too observant.

Retail therapy was a total failure because all the new collections sucked!!!!!

Sometimes just wish I wasn't much of a failure! Both hoe well!

- No motivation to study and this seems to scare me. Since when did I take 5 days to do 5 problems. Which aren't even done yet. I'm not even confident of my notes. Shiat.
- Instead I've been doing shit like cleaning up my room, working, being some sad crap, stalking people to evolve into a sadder piece of crap and using Photoshop.
- Currently stalking my girl crush. Not exactly a girl crush because her personality is a killer. But I've always envied everything about her since day one (even her personality, oh the irony), her looks, figure, this rebellious side of her, every single thing. Maybe I do envy that stuck up attitude of hers the most. I'm not sure. Can I be her please *-*

Proper post soon.

I got hooked up on the words 'zankyew' and 'bitchacho'. 'hoe' as 'oh' too I guess. Like hoe my gosh. Okay this fat bitchacho needs to start losing weight.

This sums up everything.

I know I'm doing it again. I'm pushing people away once again. I've been so damn quiet in class. Twitter became an annoyance because people kept mass tagging and replying each other. _|_ calm yo tits bruh

I just feel sad. I just want to do my own stuff, be in my own world. I've been staying at home, reading my book. I want to listen to my music, walk to school. I want to be alone. But I don't. I only want certain people to notice me. Right now I'm certain of whose attention I crave for the most. Maybe I knew it for quite awhile now. I just wasn't sure it would be him. I do know that I'm screwing with my mind. He will never ever ever feel the same way. What am I thinking. I am just sad. Sad. It's just extremely sad knowing that I will never be a priority to him. I'm always always always putting him before almost anything else that exists.

I still don't think that I like him though. The chemistry we have is total bullshit. Like shouldn't two people be having fun together. When we're alone, it's never fun fun. It's not awkward either, but it's just not fun. But why would I feel so jealous and sad then. I don't get it. I just want to be prioritized. Not just once. Constantly! As a friend!!!!!!! IS THAT SO HARD!!!

I guess you never knew me at all. You're hurting me again. Why didn't you say hi to me today. Aren't we friends. Of course I noticed this trend of you getting close to someone you just met and showering her with so much attention. I saw it coming. And now I'm hurt. You said hi to your new friend instead of me. Hoo da fuq does that, cry.

I've kept so many relatable things on Tumblr. I need to get them off.


“It was like stars exploding and burning one by one. She wondered if this was part of getting older. Parts of your heart exploded and died.”
— Jodi Lynn Anderson, The Secrets of Peaches




“The easiest thing to feel is sadness.”
— Justin Vernon




“I get it now. I get it. The things you hope for the most are the things that destroy you in the end.”
— John Green and David Levithan

Sorry for making things worse for you. Even though I was clearly aware on how anguished you were, I still challenged your ability to shut me out. It wasn't intentional. I was just, concerned. I don't know what was wrong with me. I'm sorry that I'm not like the other girls, being able to catch your attention with the slightest effort. Which was all I ever wanted I guess. Goodnight, love x

Tell me that you won't break your promise. That you won't leave.

___

Fasting tomorrow.

Wants:
1) Second piercing on left ear.
2) Undercut.
3) Green/pink hairends.

I like:
1) Dancers
2) Drummers
3) Bikers

G: I will WhatsApp you once every 4 days to see how you are coping with school.
Me: Eh why 4 days?
G: Because you cannot text people every day you douche.

HAHAHAHA. Like I literally cannot text someone every day because I will feel suffocated. People I genuinely care about are exceptions though. I would text them 24/7. This is like how kitty wouldn't call me because she knows that I hate talking on the phone. IT'S NOT ENTIRELY TRUE! I only hate calls because they're mainly, "Eh how to get here/there." or "Eh where are you." or "Hello can I speak to your mom/dad."

I really do love long talks on the phone, which are usually with the ones I love/admire, babbling rubbish in the middle of the night. One of the rare moments in life that I appreciate.

07 May, Monday
Hehehe read Raiyan's letter to his girlfriend and ended up tearing in class. He actually rented cars just to send his ex home safely. All the times he worked, was just to get stuff for her. Like a Chanel bag. Lucky girl. Someone should just marry my brother.

Had Coke Float with Yunice and Chiew Ting @ Texas Chicken @ Causeway Point.

Then I had to meet up with kitty and Khairil at the interchange already. So we went to Plaza Singapura for early dinner at Macs. Then we rushed to POMO to change kitty's guitar. THEY TOOK FOREVER THERE.

Then we rushed back to Plaza Singapura for our movie, Battleship. I think we missed a few minutes of it. It was a really good show!!! Too bad Alex Gaskarth died so soon.

Had Booze after that!!!! Khairil had some chocolate one. Hahaha my banana one is still the best.

Banana Buzz om nom nom!!!

Slacked near Istana, singing and playing the guitar. Only when they played some Korean song, would I then do my Reflection Journal.


Kitty stayed over at my house. Could see that Khairil wanted to stay over too but I really couldn't bring myself to ask him because of some unknown concealed force.

May 08, Tuesday
Student Ambassador thing.

May 09, Wednesday
I hate ecanteen. Had no choice but to eat Takoyaki. This kitty is definitely out to get me. Hahahaha.


Went to the night market near Causeway Point and bought my third packet of Takoyaki for the day and some grilled pizza. So my dinner was at 5pm.

Worked with Chirsty. This girl really needs some sleeping pills. I was clearly doing my homework and even after telling her what I was doing, she continued talking about her life story.

May 10, Thursday
Photoshop lesson. And it turned out that people mentioned me in their Reflection Journals! Aww first time!

Internship talk, then met up with Khairil. He followed me for my interview and the interviewer just had to sit with her back facing him! He kept making me laugh during the interview!!! Stupid eh!!

Joined CT and Yunice at South because I didn't consume anything since 5pm the day before. Ditched CT at the busstop because me and Khairil had to go to Marsiling Community Centre! Yay I finally get to sing!

RY joined an 2 hours later then ET and Evelyn joined an hour later or so. So me and Khairil actually sung for 5 hours. 3pm to 8pm hahaha.


Dinner at a nearby hawker centre. Where everything went wrong. Pushed away my noodles which I only had one-third of. It was partly because my gastric flu was acting up. No one believed that I felt sick.

Parted ways and I had to walk to the other bus stop with K. And I was dying from the sharp pain in my abdomen! So I told him that I might not be attending school and he didn't believe me again.

May 11, Friday
Couldn't sleep on the bus so I produced this chunk of words:

"I know your scent. I know your awkward habits. I've seen you in possibly every other angle. Things just got normal. Actually better than normal. Just like how our friendship was 2 years ago. And I'm enjoying every nanosecond of it.

I'm just not ready to lose it all. I'm not ready to lose you.

I feel that people come into another person's life for a reason. I don't know why I feel... Happy around you. I just feel damn happy. A different kind of happy. I know people leave. But I don't want you to. I need you to stay. I need."

Glad that he bothered to make this less awkward. I really appreciate it after how much I sacrificed for this friendship. I was really prepared to break it all off.

Went for Student Ambassador thing for awhile. Then I had to work. With Gen and Han Bin! They kept teasing me about how Zhiqiang would always tweet to me but it's really not true. Now it's so awkward between us because Gen and HB keep teasing us.

May 12, Saturday
Dad is back! He got me these.

UNICORN IS SO QT!!!!!!!!!

Omg love my dad. He only charged me for the necklace. Which I am proud to be paying for because now I have the studs and necklace which are really the most precious things I own.

Late for work. Just let me die please. 4:30pm to 10:30pm on a Mother's Day and we ended up hitting record sales. Regretted taking Zhiqiang's shift and now he thinks I'm angry with him.

May 13, Sunday
So Zhiqiang took my shift for today. Felt bad because there was a lot of commotion about soccer so I guess he missed part of it.

Cousins ditched me so I collected my laptop at Funan. Had to look for the nearest busstop which was the one at Esplanade. Hahaha so I saw kitty working!!! ^^

Went to Far East Plaza to get my nails done. Hehehe so cheap and I usually choose the same colour because it's favourite colour there!!!

Home and dinner with dad at Kartini.

May 14, Monday (PB)
Lunched with Shafique. Wah he keeps saying that I'm a fraud and it really got to me. It's okay, he walked me to my class but realized it was still early so we sat near the water cooler! And my classmates saw! He sent me back to class again then left.

So someone hacked my Twitter with something like "There's a hot Malay guy beside me." Deleted it. Thank goodness he was still on the way to class.

Internship talk, then looked for Khairil since he was alone. Haha both too tired to talk. Ditched him to meet ET, CT, Yunice and Fel. Fel went home and the rest of us had dinner at Swensens! Broke after my $17 meal!!!

My friends told me not to wish Khairil. Sorry for the disappointment. Out of the 3 close friends who didn't wish me, I made an exception to wish him on his birthday. My birthday message and tweet were so sweet ok! But he was asleep :( angry!

May 15, Tuesday (PB)
Upon knowing about my lunch thing yesterday, this Year 2 girl was like, "No wonder you were so pretty yesterday. Like different from other days." What is that supposed to mean!!! :(

Looked for CT to pass her Yunice's slippers and ended up staying in her class for awhile to joke around with CT, Khairil, Mr Ross, Renee, Sandosh, MK.

Walked with Shushu to interchange and kitty was at the platform too! Just that she was at the other end so we didn't get to see her!

Sembawang for Limin's house!!! She had already cooked! It's super good. Baked fish and mac and cheese hehehe. Then we went to NTUC to get ice-cream. This girl is too hospitable. While I was doing my Reflection Journal, she already heated up the cookies, scooped the ice-cream and made tea for us.

Tiger the marshmallow

Watched American Horror Story! 4 episodes if I'm not wrong, until I had to leave.

May 16, Wednesday (PB)
Met up with Shu at 12:30pm for Pizza Hut. Fel joined later. Internship workshop with Thomas Lazzerine. He is so nice and relaxed!

Funan to send my laptop for repair. Hahaha Jess (salesperson) was so qt. She asked, "Can we keep your laptop for hospitalization?" Aww so my poor baby is back there!!!!!

Supposed to meet Atin to get Atu's present but she couldn't make it! So Shushu accompanied me ^^ Dinner at Orchard Central for Everything With Fries. I know I'm sinning because they serve pork and bacon and everything. I had Fish Battered Burger with curry fries. It's extremely good.


Angie was there and told us how Mr Fu and Mr Tan already have a list of potential candidates for the overseas internship. And how they were already training them. I wanted to cry on the spot.

Went to Cineleisure and saw this cute guy with a Union Jack bag. Hahaha it was Sir Han. Shu saw her friend and then I saw Shermine, who was with Shu's friend!!!!!! My long lost primary school friend! I can't refer to her as my primary school bestfriend because I don't think she remembered. She's so pretty!

Really pretty girl

Bought Atu's bag. Heart pain. Hotel 48bux and present 55bux. Parted ways. Then someone called out my name and I didn't know who he was but since he knows my name, I waved. Then when I recognized his face, I turned back again and "Oh!"-ed and laughed!! It was the Beats Encore people.

Walked to a busstop and bus 36 driver signalled saying that it doesn't stop there. So I was happily waiting for bus 16. Thank goodness I found out that it doesn't stop there either! Imagine waiting for a bus that doesn't even go there my god!!!

Cried at home. The whole internship thing was unfair. Ms Lim of all people was the one comforting me, saying that those were just rumours circulating. So I was sitting on the floor of the boys' room, crying. Danial told dad and dad comforted me too :( "life is full of unfairness but you need to look at things from a different perspective."

May 17, Thursday
Dinner with my gurlies!!! Yaxun, Amira and Azra! Dinner at Thai Express. Ended up waiting for half an hour to get seats. My food was really good! Doubly spicy than the usual.

Frolick for dessert. Do all supposedly pretty girls have thick eyebrows or what. It really distracts me. So Azra drove all of us home! Lotsa thanks!!!!


May 18, Friday
Went to Thai Express at Raffles City for lunch with mom. Food was bad.


Had dinner at Banquet with parents at Parkway Parade. Saw K's really hot cousin. Like Justin Bieber but a hot version.

May 19, Saturday
Collected blazer from kitty at her workplace, rushed off to Royal Plaza on Scotts. Cousins were already in the room so we slacked there for awhile. Watched Black Swan and I left to collect my laptop from Funan.

Took a bus and I went all the way to Teluk Blangah. Turns out that I took the bus from the wrong side. Almost got banged by a car, trying to get a taxi, and I got really scared.

Met the cousins at Puncak for dinner. Oh please the Honeydew Chicken Rice didn't even have a hint of honeydew taste. Went to Paragon for Gong Cha's Golden Ovaltine. Back to hotel room then to Lido for our movie! What To Expect When You're Expecting! Pretty funny show I guess.

Before going back to the room, we went to the swimming pool to push the birthday girl in the pool! HEHEHE. Okay cut Awfully Chocolate cake, watched Step Up 2 and time for bed. I want Shu to teach me how to dance after watching that movie again! Actually I am tone deaf and I can't dance. Don't get the point in trying. Nevermind for the fun of it.

May 20, Sunday
Macdonalds breakfast! Such bliss. Then we went to Mind Games at Funan. The guy serving us was cute hehehe. Okay played Repeat Pete, Slapagories and Toss Your Cookies! ALL REALLY FUN GAMES. Loved the first game the most!!!


For the last game, we had to think of a word that starts with F that we can link with 'In the Bedroom'. So I shouted, "FUCKING IN THE BEDROOM!". What. I only use that word for it's main definition.

We got really tired so we parted ways. Skipped dinner because I was scared for my overseas internship interview. Wasn't too comfortable stating that I got the interview when some people didn't get chosen. I think.

May 21, Monday
Okay I know that you got confirmed for the second interview. But please be more sensitive my dear. Don't ask, "The interviewers didn't even confirm anything with you?" when I clearly stated that they didn't. Because of you, I had to break my Twitter fast.

Smoke break after school. HAHAHAHA okay I didn't smoke. Saw Karthik on the way back to class. Wah bastard :( did he not hug me because my other friends were there.

Work with Han Bin. Tiring but fun!

WHY THE HELL AM I WAITING FOR A RESPONSE FROM YOU (z). Omg maybe I'm waiting for a response from anyone at all. Feel so dependable on people nowadays.

Back here. But it doesn't mean that I'm fine. It just sucks knowing that I have to refer to my private blog for every freaking post. What's the point of having a blog when I can't even type out my thoughts and opinions then. Really tempted to move away from this space. This is too much.

01 May, Tuesday

My survival kit for a week!

Sent the lovely brothers and mom off on Labour Day.

So hansum. Too bad the sister can't make it.

After that, dad sent me to Cityhall. Met kitty there because I was going to sleep over at her house because her parents went overseas! Took away Mcspicy Nuggets.


I am actually still strict on my pescetarian diet. I would only count limited stuff and special occasions as exceptions. Though I only accompanied her for a few hours, I hope it still counts!

02 May, Wednesday
- Mr Ross told us that the Understanding Test for the cruise module would be on the day of the Jason Mraz's concert. So upset about it. I guess Limin has to go first to get good seats. Or I can cut the queue after the test.

Okay one plan cancelled. Not exactly. Just postponed. But glad Amira was busy too because I was really tired.

03 May, Thursday
- Basket. Evelyn told me to wake Fel up then this facilitator suddenly told us off. "The two of you stop talking! I stood here so that both of you wouldn't talk!" Uh okay. There goes my grade. Thankyew ^^

- Lunch with Fel at Long John's Silver. Yeck, so oily. Not used to having fast food anymore.

- Watched Gone with kitty. HAHAHA out of all the seats, we chose the one beside the couple. And only the four of us were in the theater! Stupid show, it was only suspenseful at the last fifteen minutes. Yay my movie partner ^^

- Shu joined me and kitty at Macs where we slacked for awhile with our Tiramisu McFlurry. Not nice.

- Went home for dinner with dad. Sent him off at the airport.

04 May, Friday (PB, this is bullshit la. everything also private blog, private blog. Pissed off.)

Felulus. Supposed to sound like Calculus.

Fel, Ryan, QT

Fel, Yunice, CT, Marc!

Excursion hahaha funny story. First time in my entire life have I sat alone during the bus trip. First time ever. Hehe yay shu shu so nice to comfort me! Always sat with either Limin or kitty during bus trips. Miss singing/listening to songs with them during excursion trips.

Angry cat

Really couldn't believe that you didn't even know that I was mad at you. Stupid la. Learn to prioritize okay. Eh but he did in the end. Ahh but he didn't at first!

Stupid boy c:

Did our work at Starbucks then assembled at Orchard Central where we were released.

Washed up at home then met up with Gladys at 7:30pm at Katong. She led me to Caper's for dinner. Omg I really need to explore my area more often.

Salmon Affair  and New Orlean's (really good)

Caper's wings yum!!!

Then to Awfully Chocolate for Super Stacked Chocolate Cake! Finally felt sane after meeting her. Having someone know my thoughts and actions. Hahaha I actually had so much to update her about.

@ Caper's

Me: Hey look 'wedgy'!
Gladys: Scorpios are horny.
Me: What, I'm so innocent.
Gladys: You'll be horny when you're more mature.

Okay what. HAHAHA OKAY. Plus other funny topics. Hahaha like at Awfully Chocolate, there was a bowl of sugar cubes on an empty table beside us.

Gladys: Eh!!!!!
Me: You thought that's food right.
Gladys: I thought those were marshmallows.

Omg dad said the C necklace is out of stock. WHAT NONSENSE IS THIS! So upset about it. I really really really wanted it.

He's attached. Like what. Again, so quickly.

I want/need to:
- Sing sing sing
- Update resume
- Cut split ends

05 May, Saturday
Second plan cancelled. LEPAK AT HOME AH SIA! Hahahaha freaking hate it when people talk like that!

Funan to repair the poor baby laptop. WAH BAD DAY

- Amelya was sick so I didn't get to watch Avengers. I even rejected my parents offer when they wanted to watch it last week.
- MY CHARGER AND BATTERY WERE SPOILED. Bloody hell. Took so much care of you guys and you guys decided not to function!!!
- SO MUCH FOR SAVING! I'm already broke like some hobo. Going to have to spend $200 on my laptop.
- Lost my way because I didn't know how to get home from Funan!
- BLOODY INSECTS AT THE BUS STOP KEPT FLYING TOWARDS ME! Later found out that they decided to leave their detached wings on my bag and all over me!!! AND THE BUS TOOK 17 MINUTES TO ARRIVE. SO I WAS STUCK WITH THE INSECTS FOR THAT LONG.
- 3RD PLAN CANCELLED! HAHAHAHA IT'S BECAUSE I JINXED IT RIGHT. I stated my plans on my blog, and how I was looking for ward to them. So I jynxed it! Yipeeeee! So yeah Yaxun said that she couldn't accompany me to get my piercing.
- Was hungry and there was obviously no food at home.

Okay so no Avengers, no piercing. What else what else. Who the hell am I supposed to watch Avengers with now!

Today
4th plan cancelled xoxo. But technically it's postponed. Facial with Limin. Hahaha I really jinxed my plans very badly. Oh and I'm fasting. Oh and bitch please, Starships was already mainstream in Sydney. Singapore's too slow.

Going off to Funan to send my laptop for repair again.

Really packed schedule next week! Oh these plans will definitely not be jinxed because they all consist of work and Student Ambassador poopy.

BAI HOMIES <3


Actually I'm like 2 hours late -.- hope I don't get attack by insects today please oh please!!

CAN'T BREATHE ON SHADESOF-RUST ANYMORE. Hate the thought of having people judge me. It freaking creeps me out.
I'll change back to it once I'm fine. Because I still want _ to somehow chance upon my life stories 
:( though I had it for 3 years. Ugh memories.


30 April, Wednesday

Unicorn cursor ^^

The awkward moment when Khairil saw a lighter fall from my laptop case. Hahaha makes it look like I smoke.

Today
Worked my ass off from 10:30am to 3pm. Really busy day.

Spent Labour Day with parents at Fika since facial shop is closed for today.

Strawberry Cream Tea

Roast Beef Crepe

Brownie Cheesecake ~

Pissed off.
- Like what. My dad simply assumed that I'd be back early tomorrow and on Thursday. Because as quoted from him, "I want to spend time with you okay." So I panicked. Because I already have plans. The only way to fix this is to have dinner with my friends and then have dinner again with my dad. Not funny.

- It's confirmed that my dad's using my 1k to buy my stuff. I'm not even going to Europe. I'm helping you save on an extra plane ticket hello why can't you use that money to buy my stuff since I have school. I'm so broke already. I'm already starving myself in school and you want me to starve until I save 1k is it. Okay. Okay yeah sure.

- Not even going anywhere before internship. Was really hoping to get away from Singapore again and go to  America or Spain. Bu11sHiiT.

Really no motivation for school anymore. It's weird that I feel so happy when I'm not in school. I noticed that I seem happier when I'm working or when I'm out with my parents or friends. Not that I'm doing that badly in school. Though BT should piss off from my face.

I just want to spend my life listening to songs. I've been sleeping late at night because I'd be listening to songs.

Singapore is just not for me. They don't get the jokes. Like they don't get it. Like if I were to say, 'There's so much beef in this class.' they would think of it as meat from a freaking cow. And people pronounce 'karaoke' wrongly here. OMG WHY ARE 9 OUT OF 10 OF THE SONGS ON MTV KARAOKE KOREAN ONES. DAFUG.

Holy crap. I am full of angst.

26 April, Thursday
Was bored at work so I went through the resumes on the Blackberry notepad. 3 resumes I went through, they were all from Meridian College, meaning Amira’s batch. Then I saw this Putri girl who lived in Marine Parade too! BUT IT SAID MARINE PARADE MANSION.

Me: Who’s Jia Xin, Putri and Rachel Tay Lyn Yin.
Amira: It’s not like I own a list of names of people in my school! Putri was in house comm, a rich indon girl.
Me: Sialah she stay in Marine Parade Mansion sia. I stay in Marine Parade Block 71 oni. (hehe that’s how I type to annoy her)

Amira: Help I need a job!
Me: Work at my place!
Amira: But can I not scoop ice-cream, I just be cashier there hahaha.
Me: Why don’t you want to scoop?!
Amira: Because scooping will give me uneven muscles and tempt me to stuff my face D:

OMG CAN THIS GIRL STOP MAKING ME LAUGH.

So anyway there’s this new guy at Obolo (eee hehehe target already). Actually he has been the new guy for quite awhile. Never thought I’d bother about him because he seems so arrogant. He doesn’t even glance in my direction. But I’m quite interested only because I like mysterious guys. HAHAHA! What nonsense but it’s true. I could have easily initiated a conversation with him but I didn’t bother because all my new friends leave anyway. So yup, hoping he’ll talk to me some time! I’ve already started talking to the guy at the Vietnam cafe. Wai Obolo guy so arrogant.

Felt so happy today. I must really stop being so happy because once it’s time to be sad, I tend to cry and beat myself up for everything.

27 April, Friday
- Queued up for 1 for 1 Starbucks with Mel and we left in the end because we were both rushing for time. They didn’t even have the Mocha Cookie Crumble Frappe which we wanted. We were actually nearing the counter.

- Omg I ended up late for work. YAY ZQ WAS WORKING! Makes work a little funner at least.

- Parents came to my workplace to pass me Triple Berry Vitamin Water. Really made my day because I had a bad day at school. That is so sweet. Because I texted my mom saying that I was very thirsty and had to go straight to work after school. They actually came together hehe qt.

- Best part, I had to wear heals during work because I didn’t bring extra shoes.

- ZQ helped me with my Reflection Journal even though he started work from morning onwards. So sweet, he actually researched for me! HAHA told him I’d treat him to Cold Rock if I got an A.

- ZQ had foot rot and was obviously shagged so we ended up fighting over who would throw the rubbish bag. Because I felt bad and wanted to help. He won.

- Skipped dinner. Last meal was at 12pm. So used to skipping meals but not losing any weight at all.

28 April, Saturday
Left for Plaza Singapore at around 1pm even though I had work at 1:30pm! Just to get my Banana Buzz from Boost! Because I missed Sydney eehehehe. Ended up being late for work.

Dad came at 6:30pm to pass me my dinner, after his jog.

Fishball Noodles~~~

So sweet omg why are my parents such cheezeballz. Then mom and dad came again at 9pm for free ice-cream.

Today

Okay I give up! No more snacking and I really need to start exercising instead of skipping meals! Ugh need to lose weight so badly. Already suffering with this pescetarian diet. Weight isn't dropping even though I'm having like one meal a day. Bitch please.

How I spent today:
- Being depressed about how boring my life is, like seriously. I spent hours wondering why I'm so boring.

- Comparing the size of my arm with some skinny girl's arm and being depressed. So I compared it with a chubbier girl's arm and wondered if I'm as fat as her. OK PATHETIC CAT. But I'm really insecure.

- Added album covers to some of my songs and I'm still organizing them. Crap I spent 3 hours on this and I still have 100+ songs to go.

- I haven't repeated my clothes for school yet! (except the black bandage skirt) Omg winner.

- Okay I'm sucha b0re. No wonder some people don't want to talk to me :(

Was reading through my archives. Hahahahahaha about S. Omg. He was so different last time. As in the way he treated me. Saw Mr Al at Banquet after having dinner with the family at Parkway Parade.



Miss these three boys. My second cousins, Yong Ren and Yong Key and of course, Jeremy.

0k ballz. My dad owes me close to 1k. And he said he's going to use that money to spend on my list of things from Europe. I really have no idea if he's serious or not because he has yet to return me that money. I only said I'll pay for the C necklace what! Shit I need my money back.

Psyched for May!
- Will be having plans on the first week from Tuesday till Sunday with my lovely friends. Facial, Fika, bbygz, Caper's, Avengers, piercing. Omg hope none of them cancels out on me!!!

 - Got 2 more shifts for work! YEZZZZ!!! $60 MORE FOR ME MWEHEHE!

- A night at Festive Hotel for Atu's birthday! (psychedpsychedpsyched!!!)

- Sidetrack a little: Jason Mraz's concert with Limin in June! (psychedpsychedpsyched!)